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Name: Artur (Art)
Country: United States
State: Illinois
Metro: Chicago
Birthday: 2/6/1989
Gender: Male
Interests: Boys... of course
Music: AFI, Marylin Manson, Anything from RENT, (Damn you AK), Anything from Wicked, (Again AK grr), Breaking Benjamin. PANSY DIVISION, Circuit Side, Nirvana, Muse, Flogging Molly, Rage Against, Nirvana, Evenasence, Dee Roberts, Crossfade, The Killers, Jimmy Eat World, My Chemical Romance, and ummm CHER (hey my gay side has to show sometime)
TV: I don't watch TV all that mutch but when i do i watch the following. Will And Grace, Full Metal Alchemist Ghost In Shell; Stand Alone Complex, InuYasha.
Books: Yeah i read books...I know I know i'm a nerd. Well my favs are: Interview With The Vampire, The Vampire Lestat, Queen Of The Damned, Tale Of The Body Thief, Memnotch the Devil, The Vampire Armand, Blood And Gold, Merrick, And Threshold.
Movies: Interview With The Vampire (Best Movie Hands Down) Underworld, and some other stuff
Expertise: Writing, Shakespear, Anne Rice, um Poetry otherwise i'm utterly useless
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  Preternatural 89
MSN: tormented_vamp_
Yahoo:  keeper_of_theatre_des_vampire
Member Since:
10/27/2004
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| Ok so i haven’t posted in ages cuz honestly i didn’t want to cuz every
time i would try to type something up i would get depressed as fuck and
stop... *shurgs* And i figured since i’m depressed already and i
doesn't seem like i can get any more depressed i’ll crank out a little
blog entry...
Ok so lately I've been way more money than i should, and my job doesn't
pay that well so I've started to make my own clothes and bed sheets and
curtains from these boxes full of rolls of cloth that my mom has
brought from her bosses’s place. Her boss called me how i liked them
and has just kept sending more cuz his sister or cousin or something
own this fabric shop and has been sending her all this shit and she
doesn't sew at all so she just sent them to me...
But the problem is that i haven’t worn a single thing i’ve made, or put
it on my bed or even used it as curtains... But i need to start, cuz i
can’t spend a single penny.
I’ve been looking for a new job too and so far came up with nothing.
The job i have stinks and the boss is a fucking perv/idiot. He still
owes me a paycheck from like two or so months ago.
My mom finally figured out the whole queer thing and approached me, and
asked me in her thick accent “Are you a gay Artur?!” so i denied
it and she just simply stated that she didn’t believe me... and now
she’s gone back into denial.... *le sigh*
My grades have been shit lately cuz of problems at home and everytime i
pass my counsolor in the hallway he says some shit like “How stuff at
home?” & “Have you been getting enough sleep lately” All because of
the suicide thing last year where he made me come to his office twice a
day for about two weeks cuz my ISCIS teacher didn’t like me so she told
him i was suicidal so she could fail me so she wouldn’t have to see me
in her class again....
If you’re still reading this... sorry for rambeling on and on but i need to get all this shit out.
I’ve also been begging my rents to let me dye my hair either blue or
red and so far i’ve had no luck what so ever, cuz my mom says its
satanic and my dad keeps saying “only fags dye their hair” ....Well
padre thats what i am... though i would never tell him that until i
have enough money to move out permanently.
Kayla moved a few weeks back and since that i’ve been down all the time
cuz she was my little prozac pill, she’s the one that i would go to
when i was stressed or depressed and everything would be better, but
now i can only talk to her on the phone or online and its just not the
same. I haven’t gone anywhere and enjoyed myself since she left...
Except a Halloween party i went to with Jeremy but i got drunk...
Well thats all i’ve got to say right now i guess... i have a little
more to say but i’ve gotta clean the house while my rents are at
work....
See ya
~Art
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| Hey online journal long time no type huh... well i’m sad to say that
this post won’t be a happy and up-beat one but one that i was thinking
about type for the past few months but i never really had the courage
to post because well people would or wouldn’t look at it.... but now
i’m thinking fuck ‘em all right?
Anyway for the past few months my little depression spells have been
getting more and more frequent and i’ve been trying to hide them from
everyone by acting really cheerful and saying that everything is ok and
shit like that. But now i’m thinking that i can’t hold the façade much
longer. I’ve been trying to make myself feel better by frequent visits
to the mall and buying random shit and giving gifts out to people, but
its not working anymore.
I used to have these little depression spells every month or so around
February and March and part of April but around the end of the April
the depression spells became more and more frequent, and now its almost
everyday and i know i’m annoying Kayla with always calling her and
talking about random shit. The pathetic thing is that i bought a
friggen joke book to try to cheer myself up... its not working really.
The funny thing about this is that i’m thinking of my funeral
arrangements though i’m not and i repeat AM NOT thinking about
fucking suicide and hate it when people assume that it just annoys the
living shit out of me.
anyway i have to go so i’ll continue this little post later if i have the time.
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| First of all i’d like to say this... WOLFY I’m REALLY REALLY SORRY!!!!!!!!
**************
Anyway on with my day..
This morning i woke up extra early to fix the damage that was done to
my car last night... No luck... So i did my usually thing took a
shower, made breakfast for Marian and made some tea for myself, which i
didn’t even drink cuz i was too bummed out..
Then wolfy called and we chatted for a while... Then aaron called and i
told him about the problem with the car and he told me to try
something... i did and it didn’t work so a friend of the family came
over and took the car to fix it!! For free to!!! Woot! Well it wasn’t
really for free i have to do something next week for him! Ugh!!!!!
Fast forward a few hours [ >>]
Aaron came over with his friends Anna and Kyle, we talk for a few
minutes and then Aaron and I learned that “"Men's pocky is only 69
cents in my bedroom" I know its a steal!!!! lol Oh and Aaron gave me
some pocky and the a really cute Arby’s key chain type thing!
Then we went to McDonalds where Kyle’s pants where saved by a swivel chair(don’t ask) and aaron just sat there looking cute lol.
Then we got back home and i saw that the car was back meaning that it
was all fixed!!! And i asked mi madre if i could go to Mitsuwa... it
took some persuading but i finally did it!!!! And then my mom did
something that kinda scared me... she gave me ten bucks... Yeah i know
freaky huh?
Then we went to Mitsuwa and we did some “grocery shopping” and looked
around a bit. After that we went to a Japanese toy and gift store and i
was kinda confused as what i should by while aaron was doing uber
awesome Parra Parra-ing and DDR-ing, i swear i was like WOAH!!! And
then i bought some green tea pocky as a reward for aaron. lol
On our way back to my place we kinda got... well uber lost thanks to me
saying just saying three words “Lets go straight” yeah i know its
ironic getting a bunch of non-heteros lost with those few words... Oh
we also had fun scream obscenities at random people form the car...
When made our way back, aaron had a cute goodbye kiss aided by kyle and
tofu blocking us from view... When i got home my mom was a bit pissed
but she didn’t yell so that kinda suprised me, she made me do a few
chores but i really didn’t mind at all..
Then i went online chatted with a few people, commented on aarons
livejournal and now am finishing up the post (lol) i know... i’m boring
(like a saucer *puts it up to his face*) ((sorry inside joke))
And now its... umm lets see.. around 1:13am ... i guess i should get to
bed cuz i’m gonna wake up at4:30 tommorow cuz i get to go to summer
school... oh fucking joy!!!!!!! Oh that reminds me i need to dress up
as nurse joy... WOOT!!!!
Oh and wolfy Jesus is watching look busy!!!!!!!!!!
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| <NOTE I WROTE THIS LAST NIGHT>
Sorry for not updating in sooo long but i haven’t had much to say
latley except almost killing a car load of people wait make that two
carloads of people, seeing Lestat (Amrita) almost fry her brains out,
getting out of school... and what else *ponders* oh yes the most
important thing of all HAVING AARON OVER
TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...
do you think thats enough exclamation marks?
Well let me explain what happened... Aaron came over and i was kinda
worried cuz if my bro saw him in the house he’d tell mommy dearest and
i’d be in deep shit but i kinda made a deal with him and sealed it with
a pinky promise.
So i met up with Aaron and his friend Anna at the park near me
and well my bro tagged along and was uber shy!! So he left to go
play yu-gi-oh with his friends while me and Aaron cuddled and
talked to Anna about her multiple partners LIM... Oh and Aaron did the
cutest thing ever while we where sitting there on the jungle gym
thing.. he kissed my hand... it was the cutest thing ever!!!!
We got into Anna’s car and drove to seven-eleven cuz she wanted a
slushie. Aaron and i sat in the backseat and cuddled and listened to
the radio... And well we made out to Helena By My Chemical Romance!!!
And when we finally stopped we saw Anna looking at us LIM. And then
later she commented on it by says “I leave you for 5 minutes and what
do you two do, start making out in my car.” LIM
Then we went to my place and watched FMA then cuddled some more. And
then we exchanged some stuff, like CDs and he gave me one of his shirts
<33333
Well i gotta go!!!
LOVE YA AARON!!!!!!!!
[Felling Kinda:  hehehe]
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| Fuck i’m so depressed right now its not even funny. My rents are
constantly yelling at me and its really pissing me off and i feel
like i should either break down and cry, punch a hole in the wall or
just kill myself... And now my rents are saying that i won’t be allowed
to go to friggen ACen :’( I can’t stand them... grrr.
Well anyway i’m guessing that you don’t want to hear about my
depression so i’ll just talk about my day... You know what happened
around 1st period so I'll just talk about second period then.
Basically we started our football unit and its not as bad as i thought
it would be. I get to “rush” people lol. And yeah we picked teams and
it was slightly amusing, how some people thought i knew how to play
football... Well all was fine until when i was runnigna t full speed
some kid ran in front of me and tripped me and i went flying and
because of that my shorts kinda went down and i got a few bruises... ugh
Then after that I was off to Contemp where we looked at more middle
east country presentations and took notes... Pretty boring really
Then Geomotry where Katrina left class to go the ther nurses office :’(
and we learned more about spheres OH JOY (sarcasm) and my teacher stood
in front of me when she talked and i could smell Cambles Chicken soup
on her breath *gags*
Then boring study hall but our teacher did something that she never
does, she let us talk for the last ten minutes of class!!! Its one of
the signs of the end of the world, which both Wolfy and Darcy think is
coming soon.
Speaking of Wolfy, she’s starting to call me Laurteth or something like that.
Then after study hall, English where we had a quiz and blah, then lunch
where like no one was at my lunch table... Then Spanish where we took a
quiz and talked the rest of the period and Mr. Ker stared at me.
Then after school i walked with the Anime Gang and blah then when i got
home around 4 my mom yelled at me and then my dad yelled at me lots of
yelling... And after a few hours of yelling i had the assemble the the
Ab Lounge that we got for my mum’s birthday... And yeah i feel like shit
[Felling Kinda:  Depressed (Roy)]
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